想念

Cry, Retrieved 26 October, 2014 from
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每个人的心里，都有让你思念 的人。 无论是 亲人，爱人，或是友人。

想念你了.....

之前一直克制自己不再去 关注你的消息,

但这几个星期有着莫名的强烈感 催促我去留意你，看看你最近做了什么事。

这一次 我又哭了。 哭着对 天父说了很多事。
听着 之前对你有感觉的歌，

每一首歌都让我再一次回亿着我们之前的点点滴滴。

现在的我 不忘继续以耐心等候的心 等待那个对的人出现。

满心盼望着 被主祝福的爱情 是值得等待的:)

SELF

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Mirror, mirror, mirror...

Who is the most prettiest in the world?

What if you think about yourself when you look at the mirror?

Whenever I look at the mirror,

I always has this question in my mind.

And I always end up unsatisfied about my appearance.

Because I like to compared myself to others.

When I look at the mirror,

I know that I'm so ugly inside my heart, my thought, and my attitude.

I not a good person, I have so many weaknesses, and sins that need God to forgive me.

However, most of us are always look at the negative side of ourselves.

We always feel unsatisfied with what we are now.

We didn't notice that we are amazing and wonderful as we are the awesome creation that made from God.

Hence, because of this we must give thanks for what we are now.

Think of this reason and feel happiness whenever you look at the mirror.

And say thank you to God
With a Smiley Face ;)

MONEY

The Purge,, Retrieved 3 July, 2014 from https://www.google.com.my/.

The Purge inspired me that when you is rich you have the power to do anything.

MONEY means many things from different people.

Money means capital.
Money means time. 
Money means rich. 
Money means power. 
Money means everything.

To me
Money is somethings that can avoid me to become poverty.
Money buy me the degree certificate.
Money buy me the knowledge.
Money can fulfill my needs and desires.

When I was young,
RM 10 felt like RM 100；
Now RM 10 feel like RM 1.  

It is true that
We can't survive without Money nowadays.

Everything is increase quickly, except salary.
Living cost is high in Malaysia now compared few years back.
Hence, work hard, study smart, spend your money wisely.

D.E.A.T.H

Stairway to heaven, Retrieved 6 August 2014, from.https://www.google.com.my/search?q=heaven.

Everyone have their own purpose of life that created in this world.
Even an object or animal.

Recently, many incidents keep happening after the incident of MH 370.
I don't know how people feel about this.
Maybe some people may think that this is non of their business.
But to me, I keep thinking about the real meaning of Death.

I realized that life is really short and unknown.
We do not know what will happened to us next.

Death divided into 2 types, one is we die because of illness which is a normal phenomena to us, another is because of accident or war.


So, lets ask ourselves a question.
What will you do if you know that you will going to die next month?
And if you have the answers, you will know that this is really important to you.
And you will feel regret if you not do this before you die.

For me to share the evangelism with my loves one is most important.
Because I hope that we can meet together in the heaven.

Hence, if I die, I think I'll die happily.
I will tell my friends and family members that don't cry or feel sad,
Because I'm just back to my real home, a home that is happy, no sorrow, no war.
Most important that it is with my Father in Heaven.

Hence, friends
We do not know how we die,
But we know what we want to live for.

Jesus said 'I'm the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." John 14:6

FRIEND

Friend, Retrieved 26 June, 2014 from www.google.com.my

Friend. Everybody need friend?!

I keep thinking when I'm in degree about this questions.

Do people has no friend at all in their life?

Why must we have friend?

After few days when I'm begin my degree life.

I found out the answers.

We need friends when group assignments happened.

So that we can finish work on the due date.

We need friend it is because when we absent,

Friends is the one who can tell me about the updated information from lecturer.

We need friend in our life to share how we feel,

Friend is the most suitable people for us to talk to because we are in the same level and friends know  how exactly we feel.

On the other hand, 

Friend also is the one who can hurt us the most.

They will betray us in the because of their own benefit.

They will feel envy about what we have.

So,

This are the things that I analyse about the friend.

I found out that, uni friends are not my close friend yet,

It is because I think that we made friends are because of the assignments purpose.

Hence, Uni friends are hardly to become a buddy and close friends for me compared to primary and secondary school's friends and also church friends now.

However, I know that I still have two more years to build a close relationship with them. 
And I'm sure that some of my uni friend might be my buddy for future ;)

Clock

Clock, Retrieved 31 July, 2014 from https://www.google.com.my/search

If given me a chance to be any of the object in world, I will choose clock.
The reason is simply because clock looks like me.

Clock and I never give up our life easily, we will keep moving on until our life has gone. No matter how tired I am when facing the challenges, I can’t pause or reverse back my life. My life just looks like a clock, it only moves clockwise. We can’t move backward but to keep on living and looking forward.

Clock looks like me because we get things done step by step. We have our own time and schedule to know what to do first, second and third... We do things according the number and time. 

Clock and I need to charge our battery,
Both of us need to recharge ourselves, if we are exhausted.
Clock will need a battery to continue function.
We human also need to recharge ourselves by rest or travel.
If for me I will slow down my speed and do somethings I like to do.

Besides that, we are a bit silly and selfish.
Because we will not accept the things or changes that are not in our plan easily. 
We more concern about the phase" Time is money", hence we will not waste the time easily.
We just do what is in our plan , we are a bit stubborn.

Last but not the least, 
Clock and I are hard working.
We will not stop working until we need rest.
We try our best to contribute to world or people around us.

All in all, I feel like clock can represent me. Clock = Me

Dr Jekyll & Mr Hyde

Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde, Retrieved 27 July, 2014 from https://www.google.com.my/search?

I'm sure everyone have two faces deep inside their heart.

We have happy faces,
If people praise us and because of that we have confident what we did is good,
we also will delighted and look at the good side easily.

On the other hand,
We also have sad faces,
whenever I feel sad,
I will cry,
IT is normal because it is one of the ways to release stress.

Sometimes,
we just need to be like Dr Jekyll
He always do his best job to help people,
He smile at people and treat  people around him very well.

However,
sometimes we are like Mr, Hyde
We know that we need to help those who in need
But we just didn't bother them and focus about ourselves and the benefits.

This is normal.
Because we human have weaknesses, if not we can be God.
Because only God is perfect.

I hope to be like Mr Hyde in this moment,
Because I'm in down circumstances,
I am depress because I lack of creactivity now,
And I care the way people said about me.
And because of this it make me lack of confident to face people around me.

I feel like I want to hide myself in front of others.
But I Know this is the test that God want me to go through and learn somethings from it.

And because of this I can feel the real meaning about
what is joyful when we are in obstacles
Maybe i Just need more time to rest  and learn to say No to others if I think that I couldn't make it.
Hence,I wish to be Dr Jekyll, because I wanna be the laughter and cheerful people in front of others.

WISH

Retrived, 24 July, 2014, from http://shiiteck.blogspot.com/2011/09/110265.html

If given me an opportunity to grant a wish.

I hope that I can have one week break time for myself.

One day is not enough  as it is too short for me to enjoy

One month is too long because I'm sure I will waste lots of my time 'lepak' at home.

Hence, One week is good enough for me to spend my time.

One week.

To do whatever I like to do now.

One week doing nothing related neither assignments nor church activities.

One week

This one week I definitely will go to massages my whole body.

I wouldn't want to turn on my laptop for at least one day to stop adsorbing the radiation .

I will allow myself daydreaming.

I will either watching online drama or movies during whole weeks. 

I will spend my time enjoy listening music and playing with my guitar.

I will seriously feel delighted during this week from the bottom of my heart.

ONE WEEK holiday will be ended very fast, but it is enough for me to recharge my body battery in this hectic season. 

Everyone must take some times to have a break, because people said that you can go through a long journey if you have rest well. 

However, I need to stop Dreaming and face the reality. My reality is everything will be alright after this few weeks more. 

And then I'll say hello to my MERDEKA Days..Wohoho!!!

TIME

Time,, Retrieved 29 June, 2014 from https://www.google.com.my/.

WE NEED MORE TIMES ！！！！

Nowadays, everyone is blaming  they do not have enough time to get things done....
So do I agree with it.
I wish I have more than 24 hours and utilize it wisely.

But first let us ask ourselves one question, if you agree what I said.
Where`s the time that we spend had gone???

From my experience...
As a uni student, I spend lots of time in uni to attend classes, and my almost whole day are gone.
As a uni student also，I have lots of assignments to complete, and it make me feel like I still need to do homework.
As a daughter, I have to do housework and washing clothes. and it make me can`t spend more time to do what I like to do.
As a christian, I have to join fellowship ,worship and other church activities. This is the most  unfair things, because non christian can have more times compared to us.

If I have 36 hours...
I`ll spend my time to sleep and wake up naturally without bothering about the time.
I`ll do the things that I like  such as play my guitar, watch drama, and learn to cook.
I`ll like to daydream at everywhere.
I`ll can get things done unstressful.
I`ll can gossip with friends without bothering about the time.
The most important things is 
I wouldn`t feel any STRESS.

However,

Life is just too short 
If we keep blaming what we can`t do!!

SO, let`s be a grateful person, 
By having the concept of time management.
Always remember 
Do the things which is urgent and important first.

PEOPLE ,
WE NEED MORE TIME MANAGEMENT!

L.O.V.E

Beautiful beautiful

I can't find any other adjectives to describe you

other words are not accurate

one million words are not enough

Beautiful beautiful

even though they sound like they have no creativity

believe my six sense

I want you to understand my feelings

Let us be in love.

seeing the sun set and rise

breathe in your breaths yearn for your yearnings

I can only love you even if I am left with nothing

let us be in love

forever never speaking of being apart

feeling this fullness when my life

has the beautiful you

  

Beautiful beautiful

from your eyes shine your heart

how long is forever

enough time for us to know love

let us be in love.

seeing the sun set and rise

breathe in your breaths yearn for your yearnings

I can only love you even if I am left with nothing

let us be in love

forever never speaking of being apart

when my life

has the beautiful you

the entire world because of your one word

now has meaning

Love the way the singer express his voice in this song because it is really awesome.
The lyrics that he wrote is straight forward and simple.
And it is touched my heart and remind me how sweet the "first love" I had before.

However, is that love really is as simple as that? by just telling I Love You?
I will said no.
For me love is so complicated that I wouldn't take challenge about it now.
Because It will change a person in many aspect.

The Bad side are:
Always spend the golden time chit chatting the nonsense with Boyfriend (BF).
Not independence, always rely on BF.
Can't focus on the work or finish up the assignments on time.
Will commit suicide if broke up with BF.
Feeling emo and don't want to have meal if quarrel with BF.
And many stupid behaviour happen if broke up.

The Good side are:
Have driver to send you here and there.
Have someone to be your dustbin if you couldn't finish up the food.
Have bodyguard to protect you.

But still for me I will not in relationship now unless after  I finish my degree.
Because in relationship with someone is time consuming and really is a thing that need to put more effort to build an intimacy relationship.
Like for me, I think that I'm still not mature enough and I'm afraid I'll hurt someone and myself as well.
Hence, I pray to God that teach me to love others and transform me to a better lady these few years before I meet a better men.
Because I think that better women deserve a better men.

SO,
In the real world
Love or not to love, 
That's a problem.

But of course if we find the true love that God prepared for us, 
That's the most beautiful things ever.

^{What is LOVE?} 
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.  It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Corinthians 13:4-7

Live in the Moment.

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Live in the moment.

I remember when I was standard 4,
I hope that I can grow up faster just like my sisters do.
When the UPSR was around the corner,
I wish that the time flies slowly, or maybe the time move 5 years forward
So that I could escape  my 'doom' day.
But I know it is impossible to be happen.

Live in the moment.

When I'm a fresh student enter in secondary school,
I'm so envy to those senior especially prefects,
Because I feel that they look so professional and confident.
Hence, I wish that one day I can be like them.
Human always never stop fulfilling their desire and want.
Why I said so?
It is because when I was form 4,
I never give thanks that being a student is good enough.
My teachers recommend me to interview for the prefect.
I am so happy that finally I have the chance to achieve my dream.
And at last  I'll be the treasurer at the end when I form five.

Live in the moment.
Now I'm tertiary student.
I suppose be like other friends that is full of passion and determination to chase our future.
However, I'm still hoping that I can back to my life in childhood time.
Because that the time full of joy, you just need know how to play and it is quite a enjoyable life.
Unlike uni life full of works and stress could be found easily.

Live in the moment.
Nothing can satisfied our desire.
It is so depression if we're still hoping and demanding or even blaming what we don't have now.
To satisfy your need; you need to give thanks like what you having now.

Remember
Choose the one you love,
Love the one you chose.

Live in the moment,

Pause the memory,
Stop the pain,
Reverse the happiness.

Toughest job in the world

How toughest this job could be in the world??
This job need to work 24 hours everyday.

There is no break time or even take nap.

This job get no salary but spend millions of money .
This workers always need to satisfied customer's desires.
They must require many certificates and ability.
Must be chef, teacher, driver or even have the financial skill.

They are what we call Mother .

When I am little kids

My mum is my banker.

She controls my money.

She wants me to know that saving is a good habit.

My mum also is my superwomen.

She always do her best to help me.

She flies here and there to get the things for me without any complaint.

Now

She is one of my friends.

She is the good listener that I can talk to.

She always gives me some suggestions after she listened.

Hence be a mother need to be diversity in many fields and be knowledgeable.

And my mother fulfill all these requirements. 

She is really an awesome mother that I have met.

She is my role model of mother. Thanks.                                                                  

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Life is a Cup of Water

Half cup of water, Retrieved 9 June, 2014 from https://www.google.com.my/.

Life is a cup of water.

We are pure water when we were baby.
We just know how to cry, to sleep and to eat.                                     
We cry for the food if we are hungry;
We cry for sleep when we are sleepy.

Slowly we begin to add in the mixture of the powder inside the water.
Because we started to cheat, to selfish and to quarrel with others people around us.

We even did something illegally to hurt ourselves.

And it might hurt our family or for those who loved us as well.

At the end the cup of the water became dirty that no one are going to drink but to throw away.

Hence, what we need to do in order to have a clean water back?

It is to admit your mistakes. 

Clean up your mind and heart.

Take action to ask forgiveness from others who you hurt.

But for me Believe in Jesus Christ as he died to clean our sin

is my most important action to become a clean water. 

下乡教会我的事

下乡，对我而言，从可有可无的想法，直到在筹备营，不论是人、事、物，慢慢地才开始适应那里的环境。在那段时间一直为还未完成的作品忙而忙，直到要下乡的前几天才开始对一直督促我们的协调们感到依依不舍，时间的飞逝流去让我感到很惊讶，但是心中依旧充满莫名的兴奋感，毕竟我们这班大学生来的目的是为了那纯真活泼又可爱的小学生。

于是，下乡已为我的生命中增添精彩的一页。它让我获益良多，我并没有为我所做的决定而后悔。其实我可以像我的朋友那样在假期计划做自己喜欢做的事或在家发呆，但我愿意接受挑战，脱离自己的舒适区（comfort zone），牺牲我那悠闲又漫长的假期。因为我知道若要让我的生活活得更充实、更不一样，就必须敢敢来报名参与下乡这个活动，不要再考虑许多的未知数与不安。

在筹备的时候很累，会埋怨，也不喜欢熬夜和被骂，但我知道协调们的用心良苦为了让我们跟上进度来完成所有的作品。现在的我还真的挺怀念与大家一起跳舞、唱歌、跑步、吃饭、被骂、练唱比一日一小时等等这一点一滴的回忆。

最后，真的感谢上帝让我能认识这班从陌生到熟悉的第7届朋友与协调们，我们一起学习，一起玩，一起疯，他们每一个人都真的很棒。也非常谢谢上帝让我从他们的身上有所学习，因我知道我需要进步的空间还很大，无论是知识、体能、为人处事等各方面上都要谦卑受教。 一句话: 要活得不一样，来下乡吧！